This week I worked and being very happy at different counters.. :D

Maybe im kind of more happy with busy busy counters, that is when i become serious and focus. Let me recount what happen on weekend alrights?

Friday- Overslept for school and work LT, counter 16(event hall) Tiger beers on offer so, Im thrill because event hall counter are selling packet drinks and beers... Promoters of Tiger, Carlsberg, Fruit tree and Curtain auntie are super nice people, because, their customer come to pay at my counters, thanks thanks!! Though I dunno their name, don say I bo sim, I first time alone at counter im so worried of my cashbox and walkie talkie... Promoters there helped me look after these crazy things for me.. Nice plp!

Sat- BA shift, refilled Plastic bags n wipe counters with LeeHong auntie, I love her, because she is straightforward person... :D Countered 3 and hit 11K. WOWS! nearly 12K, ARGH, im always not content with the report... :( Lunched at 12pm and Yujie took over me... Balance off everything and off i go to my bed.. :). fainted after 11K..

Sun- C5, countered 18, NICE ONE, sit at Mandarin counter is super shiok, because, that counter only accepts Mandarin orange transaction, the rest, NONO! Mean less chance of over scanning and of course you get to sit there and rest when no customer is paying there... :)) Though quite bored, but you get to see customers who are !@##$#$%#, seriously.. Hahas...

I requested to work for monday n tuesday too... I like the air of spring, plp getting busy for CNY, that is why, working makes me feel less burden like studying.. Anyway, lihwa auntie agreed and im working on monday n tuesday.. :D Astina said im mad to be very happy to get work... LOL. no one understands how come im like tat, if you were in my shoe, maybe work is better for me... :D

PS: If Astina get to see this.... That watch really has your name up there and they look like astina manufactured them! I should buy them want, now abit regret!

PSS: Dead shit in Final Exam.

Too little time, too much things to attend too.

No time for guys luh. let me list down.

1. Dye hair for Andrew
2. Revision
3. Work at Dad shop
4. Prepare CNY food
5. Bdae cum CNY chalet
6. BKK

I have already prepare to spend my Bdae with no one, because everyone's time is so different, i mean, Bdae should be a happy day, why make til everyone's life so diffcult and then celebrate with different kind of faces. Honestly, who would feel happy? So when you asked me about my bdae, I guess my answer should be, if you have time then celebrate, if not, then its ok. Its only a nobody's Bdae, not a empress, so nvr celebrate oso nvm.

Whatever you wrote I've seen it, thanks for your advice, but your advices doesnt work everytime. You maybe be very successful in all the things you do, you maybe be very happy in your relationship, but different plp different life. Its not what you experience and you know how to handle applies to me, but i appreciate what you have said. I think, I know, being independent and alone is hard for me and im always relying on someone else, but its ok, after what you said, everyone should face their own problem, I know, I shouldnt be bothering anyone anymore. So when im sad or happy its within me too. Still, thank you.

I don dare to say, im a genius, I don dare to admit anything, because I know, my abilty is limited and keep on hardworking hard a crucial part. Forget Lina, if you think she is being selfish and self centred. Don give her any chance because she might not cherished anymore.

I believe I have a better tml.

Skipped school for nearly 1 week. I can feel the burden of what I have missed in class, like Conso Income Statement n Auditing Revision.

ALL THANKS TO 2 IDIOT. Dumb idiot better jump the sea soon.

Deardear accompanied me the whole day, we went to Ehub, IKEA, AMK, lol, he knows im not feel good and he tries to distract me away n cheer me up. THANKS. :D Bought abalone n grocery for New year eve night, its all at AMK hub luh, was thinking i can take dad car home, who knows, when i pay for everything n call him, he is already at home eating his dinner... :/, Dear cabbed home with me and carry those heavy things back with me...

PS: to R***, GOOD BYE, I hate you!

Angie tumblr : When life gives you lemons, make lemonade, and then throw it in the
face of the person who gave you the lemons until they give you the
oranges you originally asked for.

After I received a msg, "I don like you to be too sticky, I don like it." I knew, Im just dreaming again, and I hope Im right too. Because, after so many things happening in less than 24 hours, I realise MrAndrew makes the best man in my life, for now I know. He doesnt dress up himself, he doesnt drive a car, he is careless and really a dumbass. But he doesnt treat me like nth, he always gives me the best he can. Whatever I want, he tries his best to buy me.

Though I always complain, he doesnt have time for me, smtime quarrel like volcanoes erupting soon. But stil he put me in first place.

MrAndrew: You better feel honoured, im praising you in my blog. And im going to BKK with you.. :P!

PS: I found him. In my pocket.

Thanks Angie.

Sometimes you just need to cry and be sad. You need to break down and be torn apart. You need to learn now to pick yourself up and put yourself back together. Sometimes, the only way to be happy is to give into sadness first, cause without sadness, there’s no happiness, you would never learn to smile.

But there are too many things happening within 24hours. In fact, less than that. Im bursting soon, all kinds of feeling, happy, worried, angry, sad, excited, all you name I felt it. The most i felt was Painfulness, like now. I cant cry and I forgotten how to.

PS: Thanks Steve.

You really cannot agitate anyone at anytime.

Somehow, someone make me feel so neglected and I went wild. I feel like im so untamed and no one could pull me to settledown. Its become so wild that I don feel right but my body controlls my mind and there is no way for me to be normal cheerful Lina. I guess that is all about Love n Care. When someone is not at the usual place to care for you, you wil initiate to go out and look for it. You may get temporary care, you may get what you want, but I assure everyone, its really temporary and the time is too short that you wouldnt want it to end... In the end, you stil get more hurt and there wil be more wounds on your old wounds.

Honestly, I have too many secrets, I am very sure, I don deserve anyone's love because I have forgotten how to Love one. I promise myself, I will not let these secret out til, Im getting married to someone whom I know he will understand me and forgive me for my wildfulness fault. (which is like I cant see who can for now)

I may forgive you but I guess I needs time now. A time for me to look around carefully. A moment to feel that actually Im always loved by someone.

PS: I didnt sleep for the whole day, because of my untamed mood, I went out to a place where no one knows.

You read Xiaxue latest post? Phuket at Andara?

I actaully thought of a lot after her post alright. That place really can let me rest n relax super lots! Im thinking of that alright... :D

WTF, I hate it when plp put me aeroplane. THANKS BTW. Karma!!!

Anyway, this weekend was wasted for nth, and *clapps! I used this weekend to see through some asshole. LOL. OLD MAN! ARGH!

Back to Lina. JiaYee came to our house and yes! Gonna bring her to Chinatown to shop, got a partner with me is so different and there is plp to listen to my rant... I LOVE HER MAN!!!! WAHAHAS.

Busymode liao, preparing for CNY, might be too busy for revision, super worry luh.

PS: Don keep "fcuking" here and there when you yourself taught others how to be selfish. DUMBHELL!

PSS: Its seems like im really angry hor.

我知道我已陷入不归路，但我没有办法站起来走开。

我很讨厌现在复杂的心情，惨的是你袖手旁观的态度让我感到更不安!

Worked at Mandarin Orange Counter 18. Earned only $100plus. But earn a few frens, plus *achem

That COW, hahas, joker anyway, should not elaborate luh.

Anyway, im fainting soon, after work, i sneeze like MAD til now. Gonna look for doctor tml. Will see what I can do luh. So tired lehh...

PS:Miss you Christmas Tree. :D